I reached out and picked it up by the thumb and finger again, finally adding all my fingers—I didn’t trust myself not dropping it. Xnx If I couldn’t control myself, then she would. I’ve been at this struggle many times. My heart was beating faster, and I was sweating. Candy wasn’t going to know about him. My parents were drunks. They kept silent. As long as I didn’t touch my face with it. I put it to my ear and listened. I accepted that, too. I couldn’t process my thoughts well. I was shooting in the dark in that regard, hoping Candy hadn’t smeared it across everything. My heart was beating faster, and I was sweating. I plucked out another one and worked my other hand into it. And then I’d do it for another hour after that.




















